Back to School

So, it's back to school time and with all of the sales and supplies I see everywhere... I strangely find myself reminiscent of the days when I was in school. Life was so much easier and I'd trade just about anything for the "problems" I thought I had then.... they were so inconsequential compared to now. I sometime wonder what it was like for my parents, watching every new year start a little older and more mature. As a step-mom now, I understand just how quickly time flies and sadly feel as though time is rapidly running out. Before we know it another year will have come and gone... what changes does God have in store this year? Seems like so much has happened over the past nearly 8 months..... so many struggles and battles, when does the relief come? When does the peace of resolve settle in.... some days are great and others so stressful.

I long for the days of financial security... where going to the grocery store didn't cause a panic attack.... when you could fill your gas tank up for less than $50.... will those simpler times ever return? Don't get me wrong, I have so much to be thankful for. A beautiful home, truck, family.... a man who although we have had ups and downs, has always provided a nice home for us. But it seems like there is something missing.... perhaps when (if, rather) I ever find work, maybe that completeness and independence will return. The insecurity and anxst I feel can be completely encompassing at times....

Time.... although passing so quickly.... is the only thing that will tell.